[Aquamarine]

I've been very inactive lately so I have no idea what's been going on with you guys. And you may be wondering why I would give a fuck what some internet people have been up to, buy I've known many of you guys for years now and we go a long way back, so yeah, I am interested to know what some internet people are doing. So... What's been happening in your lives?

[Someone Else]

O LAWD I had my wisdom teeth removed last week and it sucks, but since it's been a week it's bearable at this point.

Been feeling kinda down lately because of the crappy weather, staying home, and not being able to eat the food that I really want to. It's sunny today though and that automatically makes me feel better at least, but good lord, eating old people food, like pudding, sucks. Not too much special stuff really going on other than that now though.

[Mallick]

Suffering from the post-olympic hangover.

[gsninja]

Still looking for a job. That's been my primary focus in life since I left the theater in December of '08. My chances have been getting slightly better, but finding a job here is just fucking retarded.

Other than that, it's been college, reading books, friends, occasional parties, drawing up video game ideas, working out at the gym, and...looking for jobs.

[Lightning Star]

Same boat as pretty much everyone else. Post olympic hangover (NEEDZ MOAR HOCKEY), feeling a bit under the weather despite the beautiful day, and looking for a job.

Also I've been busy with school, though it's not nearly as bad as last semester with only 14 credits this semester. I've been trying to get to the gym at least 3 times a week, if not more, and I'm really happy to be fitting into some old clothes I wore in my earlier high school years.

Life is generally good: My friends are awesome, my family hasn't been too annoying, and my boyfriend is just kinda really amazing :] I can't really ask for more, eh?

[My Best Wishes]

I'm working and sleeping. That's about the gist of it. Trying to go to the gym, was going 4-6 times a week before work before January, now I'm doing maybe 2 weekdays and a Saturday. I'm always so damn tired, either physically tired and need rest cos I get up and gym, or just tired cos I think I'm oversleeping. Either way can't last remember when I last felt awake/didn't fall asleep within 2 seconds of going to bed. And I haven't touched my guitar in about two months...

Yea that's my whinge, not directed to anyone, although advice on sleep would be welcome...

[Ironsight]

I'm still just wasting away in front of my monitor.

[Caael]

Wanting 6th form to hurry the hell up so I can get to uni.

[Toasty]

Went and played in our wind ensemble thing at CWU at 5:30 in the morning. INCREDIBLY BORING. I laid down on the floor and slept while we were supposed to be listening to the other bands.

Then the CWU jazz group went on stage, and it was pretty freaking cool.

Then we went home.

[I'm Always BROKE]

Today I woke up earlier than usual. Felt horrible. Have to go to my shitty part time job today at 5pm, thus eating microwave crap again.

They've sceduled me for every Friday and Saturday from about 5pm to 9.30pm and they pay me shit. The people who I work with are all pretty cool and I met a nice girl there (who left about a month ago) but, I need to find something else quickly cause I'm bored as hell there.

Avoiding fights with my mother is also getting harder every day. I don't even have to talk back to make her mad it seems. Doesn't mather what I do or say, this won't change probably.

I'm spending most of my day either behind the computer, in the gym (with enormous ups and downs) and at night I either go outside with friends and chill till late, wasting our money on foods from the gas station, alcohol and weed.

Another thing that keeps me stressing is if I'm going bald or not. Would like to ask my mother about her father and his hair, but it's better if I don't. Going to visit a dermatologist next week I think.

You'd say that things could go better. However, I'm making plans to work full time and share a house with 3 friends, and maybe go to school later. Hopefully I'll be moving out in 2011. Will miss my siblings a lot though.

Recently I've learned how to pray just out of myself. It gives me faith, but I always feel bad if I'm not living up to the prayers. I feel I'm always stuck, and that feeling makes me so damn lazy. Smoking a lot of reever doesn't help much either.

I just hope things will turn out for the better. I'm having the feeling 2010 might be my year, but so far I'm wasting it. I'll have to proof myself a lot this year if I'm still willing to make it all happen.

On the positive side: I have free transport with the bus and train till december 2012.

[TheEnglishman]

Caael, on Mar 5 2010, 07:37 AM, said:

Wanting 6th form to hurry the hell up so I can get to uni.

Sixth form's a brilliant time. You get to feel like your an adult and don't need to do loads of work, but you can still get your parents to buy stuff for you. I miss Sixth form.
Uni is pretty awesome though. Just the essay's piling up at the end of the semester and debt to worry about.

[ThankMeLater]

figuring out what i want to do in life, traveling a bit, g0ing to ryerson next year, practicing to play blazblue at a competitive level, still trying to learn the bleeding mascara intro, snowboarding alot more.. always enjoyed it but was never that good, writing alot of lyrics, been kinda going through some rough emotional shit, staying up every tuesday after lost ends for 5 hours to talk to people on RB and darkUFO about it, tried quiting weed (which didn't go too well)-- will probably try again and probably fail, same job same shitty pay, just bought an armani hoodie from a dude at work, got my beast of a computer hooked up to my tv so i'm rocking porn in 1920 x 1080, still with mel.. had a pregnancy scare but we're good, ummmmmmm.. essentially just trying to stay happy.

[Golden Legacy]

Home to college, college to home. Most depressing lifestyle I could have imagined. Been wondering what the hell to do a year from now when I graduate. Overall, fairly lackluster... I miss my old friends and life very much.

[Caael]

TheEnglishman, on Mar 5 2010, 10:11 PM, said:

Sixth form's a brilliant time. You get to feel like your an adult and don't need to do loads of work, but you can still get your parents to buy stuff for you. I miss Sixth form.
Uni is pretty awesome though. Just the essay's piling up at the end of the semester and debt to worry about.

Maybe you got lucky because I have a mountain of work piling, exams are coming up and I am in no way ready. I imagine it'll be better for A2 when I can drop my 4th subject that's bringing me down.

[Aquamarine]

Yeah, we all seem to have some similar problems. I keep thinking about what the future holds, as things tend to look bleak for me as well. However, I do actually have a lot going on. I'm getting a theater performance ready, and at the end of May we might be showing it off at the biggest theater tournament/festival thing in Serbia, and after that we will most likely be traveling throughout the country and neighbouring states to show the performance in different places. Tomorrow I have a shooting for a film, although my role is minimal. Still, it's my first full-feature film, and that's pretty cool.

I also have a girlfriend who luckily likes going to the theater. And now that she can watch performances for free through me(since acting students get into theaters for free here in Serbia) she wants to go all the time. :P

So overall, things are pretty good, but what things will be like in say, a year is what I'm worried about.

[Lightning Star]

Y'all sound so depressed. :P

I guess I've just been ignoring the depressing thoughts in my head. Doubts about eternity, concerns about next year (where I'll be living, finding a job, specifics of my bf coming out here), and just dealing with jealousy/self-image issues.

[Aquamarine]

I'm not depressed, far from it. I'm aware that my life is currently pretty awesome, I'm simply going through what most, if not all young people go through. You know, worries about the future, not feeling content about myself, disappointments in people and so on.

[gsninja]

Well, yeah, what's happening to me is more bad than good at this point in time, but I keep a positive attitude through all of it. Just because you're in bad situations doesn't mean your mood has to be the same way. :P

[Lightning Star]

Exactly. And you can't take life too seriously-- you'll never make it out alive!

[ThankMeLater]

Icy, on Mar 6 2010, 11:52 AM, said:

Y'all sound so depressed. :P

I guess I've just been ignoring the depressing thoughts in my head. Doubts about eternity, concerns about next year (where I'll be living, finding a job, specifics of my bf coming out here), and just dealing with jealousy/self-image issues.

i'm clinically depressed, it's kinda hard not to sound like it..

Icy, on Mar 6 2010, 01:20 PM, said:

Exactly. And you can't take life too seriously-- you'll never make it out alive!

i never got that.. life is the most serious thing you'll ever take part in.

[TheEnglishman]

Caael, on Mar 6 2010, 04:17 PM, said:

Maybe you got lucky because I have a mountain of work piling, exams are coming up and I am in no way ready. I imagine it'll be better for A2 when I can drop my 4th subject that's bringing me down.

If you find Sixth Form work hard then you really ain't gonna enjoy uni work. Dropping the 4th subject does help though. I dropped Chemistry which I was failing really badly.

[Saturos S.]

I've been busy with uni work lately, so not too much fun. I just check in here from time to time to check on GS3 updates.

[Nosferatu]

Penis.
Nobody made the joke in a page in a half? Sons I am dissapoint.

But uhh... More Fallout 3 bullshit.

[TheEnglishman]

Writing some short papers and essays. Can't wait til April, I get the whole month off for FFXIII and meeting up with school friends.

[Lightning Star]

Nosferatu, on Mar 7 2010, 02:03 AM, said:

Penis.
Nobody made the joke in a page in a half? Sons I am dissapoint.

But uhh... More Fallout 3 bullshit.

...Really? That's all? :B







OH HEY I GET THE JOKE!

(Do not mock my blondness. I cannot help the disease I was born with! ><)

@Dipsy: As am I. Medication and shit helps. So does the sun. And really, I mean, why would you waste your life away worrying about small shit when by the time you're 80-90 years old, you won't even remember it? Yeah, there's some big shit, but it's also all in how you perceive it. I've got an eyesore in my past, but I'm not going to let that take up a whole chapter in my life, because I know I've got a lot more to be thankful for and a lot more good memories that deserve so much more attention. Being around optimistic people helps. I'm naturally a sardonic optimistic-pessimist, but my best friend is like sunshine contained in a person. And it really starts to grow on me after a while, and before I know, I'm lookin on the bright side of life. It may sound corny/cliche/sappy, but it's kinda true.

[Caael]

TheEnglishman, on Mar 7 2010, 09:51 AM, said:

If you find Sixth Form work hard then you really ain't gonna enjoy uni work. Dropping the 4th subject does help though. I dropped Chemistry which I was failing really badly.

The only reason I find it hard is because half the time I dont do it and so I have to catch up on it. Uni will be much better as I'll be doing much more focused subjects on stuff I actually enjoy, rather than a broader look at them making them far more boring.

[ThankMeLater]

you're stronger than i am i guess. i don't acknowledge the shitty things and say life sucks, i'm depressed every waking hour of every day. focusing on the good things in my life doesn't do shit for me.. it's a chemical imbalance, i'll be like this till the day i die. it's good that you're able to ignore it.. very few people are capable of pushing it to the back of their mind.

and trust me, i've tried medication; prescribed, illegal, everything.. nothing helps. even on the best e high i think to myself how helpless i am, or how insignificant my life is/might be.

/emo

[Someone Else]

Here I was beginning to think that I have a chemical imbalance, if I do I don't have it nearly as bad as you do Dipsy.

Have you ever left your country for any amount of time or work to do anything differently in your life sometimes?

[ThankMeLater]

gone on trips every now and then, but not for an elongated period of time. i was planing on going to London this year (if you're a student you can come over for like 9 months, work in a pub, and they provide room and board, so essentially you pocket every cent you make), but having to go back to school for an extra semester kinda put a hold on that. when i'm done school in toronto my plan is to go out to the uk.

i know this sounds cliche, but i'm afraid of failure. not in school, or work, just life in general. i want to produce/dj hardcore music, but i'm not delusional.. i'm not stupid.. i know unless i'm one of the top tier that it won't provide me with a livable salary. Impact does audio work for Sony, this metal guitarist my friend likes is a fucking teacher during the day.. i don't really have any other ambitions. i've never dreamed of being a lawyer, i've never held the notion that i want to become a doctor.. i'm scared that i'll finish school, have my degree that won't really be usefull outside of the audio industry (though i've contemplated becoming a studio engineer, i'm just a tad skeptical about the steadyness of the work), and just go back home and take a mcdonalds job. i don't know medicine.. i don't know trades work.. the fuck can i do when i'm done school.. i just-- i have no fucking clue how i'm going to survive after 2013.

[Caael]

ThankMeLater, on Mar 8 2010, 01:02 AM, said:

gone on trips every now and then, but not for an elongated period of time. i was planing on going to London this year (if you're a student you can come over for like 9 months, work in a pub, and they provide room and board, so essentially you pocket every cent you make), but having to go back to school for an extra semester kinda put a hold on that. when i'm done school in toronto my plan is to go out to the uk.

i know this sounds cliche, but i'm afraid of failure. not in school, or work, just life in general. i want to produce/dj hardcore music, but i'm not delusional.. i'm not stupid.. i know unless i'm one of the top tier that it won't provide me with a livable salary. Impact does audio work for Sony, this metal guitarist my friend likes is a fucking teacher during the day.. i don't really have any other ambitions. i've never dreamed of being a lawyer, i've never held the notion that i want to become a doctor.. i'm scared that i'll finish school, have my degree that won't really be usefull outside of the audio industry (though i've contemplated becoming a studio engineer, i'm just a tad skeptical about the steadyness of the work), and just go back home and take a mcdonalds job. i don't know medicine.. i don't know trades work.. the fuck can i do when i'm done school.. i just-- i have no fucking clue how i'm going to survive after 2013.

You get contacts during uni. My brother started off doing a film studies course and now he's getting internships with fucking Ridley Scott and Jerry Brookheimer.

[Toasty]

I played Mass Effect for the first time yesterday. Made my guy look like Spock. Named him Spock too. He's so badass.

[Lightning Star]

>> I hate you.

I downloaded ME twice-- once on my netbook, once on my HP laptop. Aparently I have super shitty graphics cards and therefore I cannot play said game. And for all Nos has been hyping it up to me, I REALLY wanna play now >|

(I'm pretty sure I didn't use hyping correctly in that sentence. meh.)

[Caael]

Toasty, on Mar 8 2010, 06:30 AM, said:

I played Mass Effect for the first time yesterday. Made my guy look like Spock. Named him Spock too. He's so badass.

Oh god. I think I suddenly hate mass effect now.

[Mallick]

ThankMeLater, on Mar 7 2010, 02:20 PM, said:

you're stronger than i am i guess. i don't acknowledge the shitty things and say life sucks, i'm depressed every waking hour of every day. focusing on the good things in my life doesn't do shit for me.. it's a chemical imbalance, i'll be like this till the day i die. it's good that you're able to ignore it.. very few people are capable of pushing it to the back of their mind.

and trust me, i've tried medication; prescribed, illegal, everything.. nothing helps. even on the best e high i think to myself how helpless i am, or how insignificant my life is/might be.

/emo

She's not stronger than you, she frets about the small shit. =P Don't let her fool you. But yeah, depression really sucks and it's one of the hardest ailments to medicate. There are so many possible imbalances that can cause depression that most of the time you're just taking shots in the dark until you find the right medication. A few small suggestions I can make to you are:

Get lots of sun. I don't know why, but it helps. You'll find a lot more people are depressed during the colder seasons because they don't get outdoors and in the sunlight.

Don't oversleep. Sometimes all you want to do is just stay in bed, but it will only make things worse. If you've got some late classes, get up at your regular time. There's always something satisfying about having your day start in the morning - even if it's hard to get out of bed.

And finally, cut back on your MJ smoking. You know you need to clear your head a lil. Besides, when you ain't smoking as much weed you'll find getting more sun and less sleep a lot easier. :3


While I've got your attention, http://fuckyeahmashups.tumblr.com/post/215...shit-in-the-usa

[ThankMeLater]

Biggie and MILEY!?!?! i'm scared.

and thanks dude.

edit - oh m fuck... great song.

[Lightning Star]

Mike Babcock, on Mar 9 2010, 01:00 AM, said:

She's not stronger than you, she frets about the small shit.

Stfu bitch. That's just plain anxiety, not depression :P And I wouldn't fret nearly as much if guys would stop being so damn confusing and mysterious and arghblable.

Mike Babcock, on Mar 9 2010, 01:00 AM, said:

Get lots of sun. I don't know why, but it helps. You'll find a lot more people are depressed during the colder seasons because they don't get outdoors and in the sunlight.

Don't oversleep. Sometimes all you want to do is just stay in bed, but it will only make things worse. If you've got some late classes, get up at your regular time. There's always something satisfying about having your day start in the morning - even if it's hard to get out of bed.

While I already said the first, I agree with this message. *thumbs up seal of approval*

And don't hate me. I ignored your link :B

[Someone Else]

Lately I've been feeling awesome despite that I'm a bit worried about my grades in my classes (stupid half online courses are confusing)

Probably because it's the first time in two weeks that I haven been: 1) Sick or 2) experiencing the aftermath of oral surgery.

Plus the weather is really starting to look like spring.

[Eugine]

Mike Babcock, on Mar 9 2010, 04:00 AM, said:

She's not stronger than you, she frets about the small shit. =P Don't let her fool you. But yeah, depression really sucks and it's one of the hardest ailments to medicate. There are so many possible imbalances that can cause depression that most of the time you're just taking shots in the dark until you find the right medication. A few small suggestions I can make to you are:

Get lots of sun. I don't know why, but it helps. You'll find a lot more people are depressed during the colder seasons because they don't get outdoors and in the sunlight.

Don't oversleep. Sometimes all you want to do is just stay in bed, but it will only make things worse. If you've got some late classes, get up at your regular time. There's always something satisfying about having your day start in the morning - even if it's hard to get out of bed.

And finally, cut back on your MJ smoking. You know you need to clear your head a lil. Besides, when you ain't smoking as much weed you'll find getting more sun and less sleep a lot easier. :3
While I've got your attention, http://fuckyeahmashups.tumblr.com/post/215...shit-in-the-usa

This is actually great advice. I can personally attest that getting more sun works wonders.

[Ironsight]

All you depressed guys should read this:
http://www.amazon.co.uk/How-Drive-Tank-Fra...s/dp/0349122237

[Eugine]

I've had depressing days myself, but never to the point of medication. I do remember crying a few times =0
It was more love related than anything else though lol.

I do hate being rejected...

[ThankMeLater]

whiny emo crybaby; shut the fuck up

kidding, i love ya brah

[Eugine]

ThankMeLater, on Mar 9 2010, 10:43 PM, said:

whiny emo crybaby;

Not as bad as you ^ _ ^

[Mallick]

Icy, on Mar 9 2010, 02:02 PM, said:

Stfu bitch. That's just plain anxiety, not depression :P And I wouldn't fret nearly as much if guys would stop being so damn confusing and mysterious and arghblable.



While I already said the first, I agree with this message. *thumbs up seal of approval*

And don't hate me. I ignored your link :B

Eh, I figured it was an idea that needed to be stressed. And anxiety and depression go hand in hand, doncha know?


p.s. the link was for chris and chris only. none of yall could appreciate the biggie song =p

[Lightning Star]

I guess. When it comes down to the neurotransmitters, in my case its the same chemical. I just got back on my medication again and hopefully that'll help with anxiety.

Though, I never had issues with anxiety until I had my first panic attack last year during my first semester of college. Tbh, I really think it was just the fact that college sucks that did it :P

[Mallick]

And the fact you hadn't decided to be a slut yet.

http://img37.imageshack.us/img37/2940/549778.jpg

[Toasty]

Getting the right amount of sleep certainly helps depression. Too little, and you're tired all the time, and don't want to do anything. Too much, and you'll feel like you've wasted the day. It'll probably also take you longer to really feel awake, too.