Sad X.x
#1
Posted 22 January 2008 - 08:38 PM
Well, today at around 11:30, I found out one of my teachers of last semester was found dead at his home. I don't know why he died, so I'll update you guys with this when I get the info.
In my Math class, a friend of mines told the class that the teacher died, and I laughed because he didn't seem serious at all. I didn't believe him, and continued to do my Math (I guess my math teacher didn't hear the news, so he teached like normal). It wasn't until 12:30 in another class, that I really believed cuz another teacher of mines confirmed it, and unexpectedly... The news sinked in quickly.
I cried infront of all my classmates. Thankfully, I wasn't the only one. This was one of the few times, in my entire lifetime I cried infront of anyone, and to think I couldn't even hold back emotions, when I tried to! I always told myself "Eugine, attachment is deadly", and I guess I fooled myself to believe I was free of attachments x.x
Today proved me wrong.
I'm not as sad as before, cuz honestly we weren't that close. But he was a great teacher, and I begin to wonder how will I react when someone close to me passes away. I hope I can only cope with it... And I guess, I do cry, when I see people crying.
There are people, who are laughing at this! I guess it was their way of moving on.
Girl: The first thing that came to my mind, was that he wouldn't be able to grade the essay I thought I did bad in!
So, any of you experienced the passing away of anyone close to you?
#2
Posted 22 January 2008 - 08:42 PM
One of my friends died about 2 weeks ago. He was only 22, and died from Pnbnoiuna(worst spelling ever). His body was so wrecked from Heroin, that it didn't show any signs of the diseasce, and couldn't fight it, so he jsut, died, in his sleep. I was preatty sad, but I'm getting over it.
#3
Posted 22 January 2008 - 08:47 PM
#4
Posted 22 January 2008 - 08:49 PM
Well really he broguht it on to himself.
or
It's his own fault because of the heroin.
...But like, that's not the **** I've wanted to hear at the moment.
#5
Posted 22 January 2008 - 08:54 PM
#6
Posted 22 January 2008 - 08:58 PM
#7
Posted 22 January 2008 - 09:00 PM
#8
Posted 22 January 2008 - 09:02 PM
My best friend was hit by a car last year. She'd been my friend since we were kids but none of my other friends really knew her so they all kinda acted like nothing happened. I dunno I'm still not over it. It'll get better with time though, things always do
For now eug, I give you condolences and hugs <3
#9
Posted 22 January 2008 - 09:04 PM
My grandma was in a nursing home with Alzheimer's for a long time before she died. My family and I took it well; probably a lot better than if she died suddenly.
I remember on one of her last days, my dad asked me if I wanted to see her one last time. I knew that she was getting worse over the days, so I chose not to. I wanted to remember the times when she was healthier and happy, rather than her fading away. I don't regret my decision.
#10
Posted 22 January 2008 - 09:13 PM
#11
Posted 22 January 2008 - 09:49 PM
#13
Posted 22 January 2008 - 10:14 PM
The last one passed away in December, many students, alumni and teachers were crying and not everyone fit in the church. It was also horrible because I had just come back from the states and I had gone to visit the school on Thursday just to say hi to teachers and friends. When I passed by her office, she was away in a meeting and I didn't go back to check before leaving. She died on Saturday.
One of my other favourite teachers had told me to step by again later before I went back to college so she could say goodbye to me. During the funeral, she walked over and said "Didn't expect it to be so soon did you?"
I don't suppose funeral and burial etiquette vary much from Costa Rica to the U.S. but here, burials are very personal and usually only the close family attends the burial. However I felt I had to say goodbye like that. Everyone understood and felt the same way.
She had been one of my main supporters for my coming to college in the U.S. I wasn't against it or anything. I already had my visa and everything but she encouraged me and gave me one last push. I gave her my e-mail and I never e-mailed her nor did she e-mail me.
It's still hard to believe she's gone. Just never forget everything you learned Eugine (assuming you don't, since you can't exactly forget material you've learned.)
#14
Posted 23 January 2008 - 12:24 AM
#15
Posted 23 January 2008 - 02:06 AM
#16
Posted 23 January 2008 - 10:18 AM
I don't think people really understand the degree to which their lives have been touched by other individuals, teachers included. And when it does occur, it's heart-wrenching. I'm so sorry Eugine, I give you my condolences and my hopes that you'll come from it all a stronger person. :)
#17
Posted 23 January 2008 - 10:33 AM
#18
Posted 23 January 2008 - 12:33 PM
I felt a little sad hen my grandpa died when I was five, but I didn't really get a chance to get close to him,
Dude of Wind, on Jan 23 2008, 01:24 AM, said:
Yeah, that's how I felt. My brother was devastated because he was 15 and my grandfather really liked him a lot.
#20
Posted 23 January 2008 - 02:54 PM
The only moment that I cried was after the funeral when one of my other friends came and sat next to me and said: "He should have lived for so many more years."
But the hardest part was meeting his parents again after the funeral. I had accepted his death, even though I didn't understand the why. I didn't know what to say or what to comfort them with. They just couldn't accept it, luckily my mother then came in with photo's of him and me on one of my birthday parties. I'll never forget how his mother cried and smiled at the same time when looking at the photos. His passing was a sad thing, but it's best to just remember them by the good stuff, bring up memories with your friends. Believe me, it helps, helps a lot.